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November 21st, 2012


Do one thing every day that scares you
Holy. Crap. My classmates and I are all working on a Java project that's meant to be part of our portfolio for when we graduate (we're all doing the same project, but on our own). I got 2 points off because of a known layout error, plus I took forever because I needed it perfect and handed it in with 15 minutes to spare before I would have gotten a 0. I also handed it in without doing an exercise out of the book (didn't have time, and it was only worth 5 points out of 55). This is the note the teacher sent with it after she graded it:
"Jennie, work on the layout; you're right, the table is wonky. You are the first one I've graded whose project worked without me needing to change anything. For that, you can forget about exercise 36.7. Java is really particular when it comes to ui layout. Refer to some of your other assignments that worked. I know you'll get it."


Did I mention the project adds things and retrieves things from a database using Java? Yeah, I'm awesome, I know. :D

November 11th, 2012

I once posed the (rhetorical) question "What's up with black history month? Why don't we have white history month?" It wasn't a serious question, wasn't meant to be answered, it was meant to make people think. It wasn't meant to provoke any particular thought, it was just meant to make people THINK because I feel that a lot of them don't do it nearly enough. People are too absorbed in their lives and they don't 'see the forest for the trees.'

I got a response from someone who took it seriously, and they rather aggressively said something along the lines of "because of the plight that black people went through," while insinuating that I was an idiot for even conjuring up such a thought. This person is correct, African Americans went through hell. So did Japanese Americans during WWII, Native Americans, Jews, immigrants, and many, many other groups. I'm not saying that we should ignore that, deny it, or make light of it. What happened in all of those cases was horrendous and should never, ever be repeated.

However, the more I think about it, the more I realize something. Why do we need a MONTH dedicated to African American history? Shouldn't that be something we always remember? We're fighting racism, still, in this day and age (which is ridiculous, by the way). Doesn't it seem that by creating a month-long event where we 'honor' what happened, that we're further distancing the races? It's practically SCREAMING "they're different!"

Isn't the battle against racism and prejudice about trying to convince people that we're all human and that we all have so much in common? Black history month isn't the only thing that distances us, either. Native Americans are still being compensated for what happened how many years ago? I know that their land was stolen from them, but that was their ANCESTORS. The Native Americans living on reservations and getting "perks" from the government didn't have their land stolen from them. They were born into the United States, just like me. This could be a touchy issue, but that brings me to another point...

I'm not racist, I don't discriminate against anyone based on their gender, disability, race, age, or anything else. Even so, somehow I'm still walking on eggshells. If I disagree with someone who happens to be different from me, am I going to be accused of prejudice?

I did not enslave African Americans, and I did not manipulate natives out of land. I wasn't even BORN when those things happened. Just because others of my race were involved, doesn't mean I should pay for it, or even feel guilty for it. I'm ashamed, sure. I'm ashamed because HUMANS did it. I'm ashamed to be part of the same species who torture and kill and scorn each other, mostly over completely inane crap.

I'm not saying people should forget their culture and all be clones. I just think we should stop fixating on and overcompensating for what happened in the past and focus on not making the same mistakes in the present and the future.

November 7th, 2012

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Jennie Rebecca
It's a complete disgrace for me to have a premade LJ layout. Unfortunately, I can't remedy that because I have Java that needs doing. I kinda doubt it's going to do itself. :/

I have a pretty nasty, let's call it "time consuming," project going on right now. I have to hook Eclipse to SQL Server (that's done, though probably not done properly if my past experiences with development software are any indication). Then, I have to access stored procs to update database information through form(s)...And then there's the MVC runaround which I haven't learned to appreciate yet. >_<

It'd be nice if the blasted instructor gave us a little more direction besides "Google it." Googling is for sh*t I'll only ever have to use once and, therefore, don't need to memorize. For stuff that my career is going to depend on, I'd like a little textbook-instruction.

I should just forget the Web Analyst/Programmer crap and become a game designer. At least that wouldn't be claw-your-eyes-out boring. Except...Then I'd probably be living-in-a-refrigerator-box. ;)

January 16th, 2012

Note to self

To import a [Java] project into Eclipse (Indigo),
-Existing Projects into Workspace
-Select root directory: select the top folder for your project
-After it's done scanning for projects, select the project(s) that you want to import

I had so many problems with this, I figured I should write it down. I also posted it on the Facebook page for Eclipse.

January 13th, 2012

What the...

I stopped fighting my inner demons
http://allrecipes.com/recipe/slow-cooker-chicken-and-noodles/ One of the people that commented on it put FOOD COLORING in their soup. Yes. Their chicken noodle soup was "gray" so they put f*cking DYE in it to make it yellow. That's outrageous! Am I the only one who doesn't think that food has to be pretty? Sure, it helps if what you're eating doesn't slightly resemble vomit, but I never understood the garnishes and fancy shit they put on your plate so they can charge you $8 more and call themselves a classy restaurant.

Yea, I'm a farmgirl, can you tell? Speaking of which, if you tell anyone, I'll...

Yeah, there's actually nothing I can do about it.

October 29th, 2010


I cooked with a gas stove today and I DIDN'T DIE!! Yay!

October 25th, 2010

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I have a new objective. *devil grin*


October 13th, 2010

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Someday, I'm going to get a female rat and name it Ophelia.

October 11th, 2010

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I had a dream about rats last night. It was a good dream. :3

October 6th, 2010

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I guess I don't have anything interesting to say. It could be argued that I never have anything interesting to say, but I have nothing to say that I find interesting to talk about.

I'm not having a very good day. I'm betting it's only going to get worse.

I love you. That's the only interesting thing I have to say.
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